The thing about having a birthday near the end or beginning of a calendar year is, instead of making resolutions, one tends to get nostalgic about things done (and not done) during a year or even a lifetime. Or maybe it's just me, I dunno.
Anyhoodle (*grin*), at 3:30 this morning when I still could not sleep, I started thinking about milestones and stepping stones over the course of my 47 years. Perhaps this was generated, in part, by the fact that I had attended a "future freshman" night at the local high school for my first born. Regardless, I was left wide awake in the wee hours today, swimming in thoughts of my past and hopes for my daughter's future.
So, journey with me, if you desire to learn about me, into my sojourn to the past:
Age 18 - with hopes for a career in musical theater, started college
Age 19 - realized that, while I possessed some modicum of talent, I did NOT possess the drive nor the motivation to attain my lofty goals for entertainment glory
Age 20 - earned associate's degree in performance; left Florida for Indiana to begin university to study arts administration
Age 23 - took a detour to get married; lost a mother to cancer; left Indiana for Washington to begin life as a Marine Corps wife; nearly widowed (save only for the fact that I pried the gun out of his hand in time)
Age 24 - moved back to Indiana; separated from nearly suicidal spouse; moved in with father; lost father to heart disease.
Age 26 - FINALLY earned college bachelor's degree; divorced first spouse; started career; purchased very first brand-new car
Age 26.5 - met new man
Age 29 - moved to the desert; married life-long partner
Age 34 - bore first child; left career behind; became full-time, stay-at-home mom
Age 36 - earned master's degree; began staff position (from home) writing for a family magazine
Age 37 - bore second child
Age 38 - assumed management position in a national women's ministry, working with several hundred women in the metropolitan area; lost job with magazine when magazine ceased publication
Age 43 - received diagnosis of
Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension; resigned position with women's ministry
Age 44 - began extensive volunteer position at childrens' school, volunteering four days per week
Age 47 - remembered, by studying my milestones, that I LOVE my life!
There you have it; my life in bullet points. Not too bad. I think I'll keep on plugging away. The rewards are in the minutiae; the payoffs are immense.
Later daze, y'all.
Just to clarify: My birthday is not until the end of the month; I've just been thinking about where I've been and what I've done versus where I want to go. I blame it, in part, on my daughter's impending high school career and also, in part, on the passing of an acquaintance. Additionally, I am turning 48 years old (yeah, it's taken me a bit to admit that), so, consequently, I currently AM 47 years young. Thanks for the good wishes, though!